indecent proposal

Indecent Proposal





Getting into bed had always been the highlight of my day; i'd always imagined it like some kind of cloud or gentle nest where i could just let go of all the stress of acting cool and looking perfect and saying the right things. But now, it loomed like a torture device, a place where i'd close my eyes and have to replay what had happened over and over, like a closed-circuit TV. At this very moment, my shivery body had awaken upon fear. What the hell was going on, as many were asking....A nice chap(unreveal actor)from Mediacorp had offered me a ride home. It was to my astonishment that i found out it was him, because when he greeted me 'hi', the surrounding was almost shimmer. But no one would ever expect that i had indeed hop onto a car that nearly leads me to losing my dignity and ruining his career!!! On the way everything looks fine, we were chatting about work and partially our social-life blah blah blah. It was till we reached my apartment, he suddenly grabbed to the collar of my shirt, pressed his lips against mine and pull my hand down to his pants. I tried to resist, but he was too strong and i could smell he tasted of rum/vodka from his breath. With the flung of my force, i pushed him away from me. 'Are You Crazy' i said with my voice skating the thin edge of panic. My heart was pounding so hard that i thought it would burst in no time. Suddenly this 'out of good heart' intention seems far worst than i could ever foreseen, because the anonymity was gone. If i would have tag along with him, soon everyone will know me by name. A sheepish silent runs for awhile till i asked him why would he convince himself to do such thing, and somemore, at his own risk?? He told me he was tired and stress out with his work and all the crews on set seem to dislike him. The most revealing part of the conversation was, he told me his co-actor aka senior colleagues urge him to find some junior actors or staff within the same surrounded fence for fun or what we call 'One Night Stand', if he need to wank or 'relieve his stress'. So i assuming he's taking their advice into action and sadly i'm the 1st victim that had been targeted. He apologized to me and acknowledged his own errors. I advised him not to believe or listen to others, as he's just creating an opportunity for them to step into his shoes and ruin his career. His tears swept down like opening tap. We both knew that he had made a regretful-act, yet the only thing i can do during that point of time was to allow him to cry on my shoulder, i could feel his intensed body; just like one who commit an offence and was too ashamed to face himself. Can u imagine a good looking man with a tangle of black hair, big eyes, an athlete's body like him would ever do this?? not to mention he's a well known actor....i really felt pity for the current stage he's in, there's no one to be blame from this incident and i'd made my promise to him that i wont reveal anything to anyone; afterall blogger is not human.